I haven't done this type of post in a long time.
It's gonna be different.
I want to continue these because I know it's helped a lot of you out.
I don't know if I've mentioned that I've been reading "My Utmost for His Highest" by Oswald Chambers. It's a devo, and I HIGHLY HIGHLY HIGHLY recommend it. It's truly changed my life. For the better. There is so much conviction, wisdom, transformation in the book, and I wish I could tell Chambers this to his face. I wonder how many people he's changed with God's help through his words. Well anyway, I'm gonna write quotes from this book and mention how I perceive it and how it's helped me daily.
1. March 4 - "It is easier to serve or work for God without a vision and without a call, because then you are not bothered by what He requires. Common sense, covered with a layer of Christian emotion, becomes your guide."
Ok first off, you ain't have to do me like that, Chambers! Sheeeesh! When I read this, it felt like a graceful stab to the soul. Graceful stab meaning the gentle conviction that comes from our Lord Jesus Christ. Man, Ok.. so. There's been many times in my life where I think I'm doing the work of God. It feels good to do something "for His name" because it feels like the right thing to do. It's been such a struggle of mine putting my emotions first, followed by the good works of my heart. It was easy for me to go on a missions trip in 2010, acting like God lead me to this place and around these people, doing the job I thought I was doing right. I so often allow God to work in my life, but to be completely honest, I'm only allowing Him in certain parts that I think are ready. None of me will ever be ready, but that's the beauty of me allowing to live out HIS WILL. It's time for us to let go of the comfort zone, the stable emotions, the common sense, and just letting Jesus pick us up at the time He knows is right for us.
2. March 23 - "If the Spirit of God detects anything in you that is wrong, He doesn't ask you to make it right; He only asks you to accept the light of truth, and then He will make it right."
I can't count how many times I've tried to make things right with God because I felt like it was my obligation to prove to Him I was worthy enough of being made right. How wrong was I to think that. How ignorant and forgetting was I to think that. Jesus paid it all. He sacrificed His life so He can give us His light in order for us to be right in His image. I remember there was a point in my life where I was physically, spiritually, and mentally tired of fighting to be good for God. All I ever wanted was to show God how I can change for Him and that always brought me to tears. I wanted to prove to Him, but He was there to tell me, "the truth will set you free." In those words, I accepted his glorious light, and He made it right for me. The battle is done and He has won. God, I ask you to let your Spirit work in me the beauty of your mercy and grace.
3. March 24 - "You may often have to watch Jesus Christ wreck a life before He saves it."
This sentence reminds me of the verse, "let the bones You have broken rejoice." I don't think many people realize how amazing it is seeing God strip us away from our worldly desires and satisfaction, only proving to us that He is all we need. I have witnessed Jesus wreck my life so beautifully and peacefully. He has demonstrated to me that in any pain, any struggle, any sorrow, He is saving me from myself because I cannot do it alone. I can't live a life without His love.
4. April 1 - "Beware of getting ahead of God by your very desire to do His will."
Have you ever felt so excited for something, to do something, to accomplish something, that you must do it right then and there. I am so guilty of this. I swear I have no patience to wait. I am always so eager, so ready to move forward and to live out something God has called me to do. That's where God comes in and tells me that I am not on my time, but on His time. There has been many instances in the bible where He fulfilled His promises years and years after he spoke them to His people. I pray that God gives me the gift of patience and trust in His timing, not my timing. We are such fools to believe that our time is more important than His.
5. April 11 - "I belong to a new spiritual order."
Spiritual growth takes years and it keeps going as long as we obey the order of God. God asks us to obey Him, but He also lets us be. Kind of confusing, right? He lets us be who we are, but He wants our hearts and souls to chase after Him. I think I've reached a time in my life where I'm continuously running toward the finish line. My new spiritual order is the grace and mercy Jesus gave us and we are so undeserving of that. I want my daily decisions, accomplishments, circumstances to be completely lead by the Spirit of God because with Him, I am so much more sure of His will I am living out. I have more energy, happiness, reassurance when God is my spiritual order. I worship a holy, infinite, and righteous God.